This publish is predicated on Week Two of An Ignatian Prayer Journey.
From out of nowhere, my telephone rings. I examine the quantity. One in all two issues is prone to occur. Both my coronary heart leaps and an enormous smile crosses my face (I’ve been eager for this name.), or I chunk my lip and really feel my coronary heart recoil a bit (I’ve to take care of this.). As I pray my each day Examen and look again via my day, it’s not the telephone name itself that I ponder with God, however quite the spontaneous gyrations of my coronary heart that it ignited. The place did that come from? I prayerfully surprise, asking for the grace to see myself truthfully.
Solely in prayer is my reflection this clear. Within the presence of God’s overwhelming love, I’m secure to confess the supply of my needs. Generally the supply is a wholesome want, just like the fantastic bond I’ve with my daughter, and I’m full of comfort and reaffirmed that point spent interacting along with her is certainly the place I’m referred to as to be. Generally the supply is an unhealthy want to construct my ego or cross unfavorable judgement on somebody. God gently jogs my memory that he provides me all of the ego-stoking I want or that he sees that different as a beloved youngster, no matter how that particular person has acted. I’m referred to as to do the identical. I don’t really feel belittled or judged myself, however quite reassured that I can let that unhealthy want or negativity go, as a result of it isn’t serving to me develop to be the particular person God is looking me to be. Now, on this secure area, I reaffirm my dedication to reply with a coronary heart rooted solely within the want to like and mirror God on this world.
Certainly the following time that telephone rings my coronary heart will bear in mind this little dialog God and I had. Certainly I get it now and may love absolutely. Properly, we’ll see what tomorrow’s Examen brings.
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